If you believe that there is god but you don't worship him, that means you are not a beggar. because worshipping is nothing but begging. give me this, give me that, give happiness, etc. And also you believe there is god. I think you should read a bit buddhism and osho! you can replace this god with many words - existence, godliness, meditation, etc. God is a fiction and these all are truths.... If this is about you, I liked your view....!!!